‘I cannot sit and explain my heart’

After a long time, Ranbir Kapoor finally decided to come clean about his breakup with Katrina Kaif, his stance on social media and who he is as a person. After the critical acclaim received by Tamasha, he went off the radar and steered clear of the media. Kapoor says that he doesn’t owe the world or the media an explanation for anything. Excerpts from an interview:

Q What do you have to say when people allege you’re emotionally distant? 

I don’t need to change the perception, don’t want you to know me as a person. The lesser you know about me, the better it is, you know. I don’t want you to know me as a person.

Q Why are you so evasive when it comes to talking about a relationship? 

In my previous relationships, whatever I’ve had, lot of things were spoken and I think you lose dignity in what you share with somebody because it becomes a news item. It becomes fodder for gossip.

Q You had said that you want to have kids by 30. You’re 33 now, so what&’s up with those plans? 

Of course, the time frame changes because I had indeed said that I want to marry at 28 and have kids at 30. But my ambitions and desires are the same — want to get married and have children but I will do it in the right way. I will meet a like-minded person, fall madly, truly and deeply in love with her and just take it from there. Everything should be natural and organic.

Q Were there any cold vibes on the sets of Jagga Jasoos?

Not at all! I think Katrina and me have always had amazing creative energy. Working with her has always been fun. Apart from that, the kind of passion and work ethic she has, I don’t think I’ve seen that in many people in this industry.

Q Do you think your words have been misconstrued? 

Whatever I said was misconstrued. My personal life is dear to me and my relationship with Katrina is or was, very special. After my parents, Katrina is the most inspirational entity in my life. I hold her very dear.

Q Do you ever feel like clearing the air when it comes to rumours? 

I cannot sit and explain my heart or my feelings. When my relationship is concerned, it was punctured by a lot of things — baseless rumours, reports, point of views and perceptions. It hurt but I don’t want to talk about it.

Q Why are you not on social media? 

I don’t like highlighting myself. I don’t like telling the world see where I am travelling, look at my great body, look at the food I eat or look how happy I am. I have nothing against social media because it&’s a worldwide phenomenon. But my view is that there is a lot of brainwashing, lot of self complementing, trying to put yourself on a pedestal. I am on Instagram though.

The good part is that you have a direct connection with fans and people but I feel it&’s getting too close. As an actor, you need to step back, need that mystery and want the audience to believe your character. They don’t need to know where I pee and how much salt I put on my food! It&’s all stupid information.

Q Is your father quite liberal with his opinions on you? 

However fierce and on the front foot he is about topical things, I think he&’s a little protective about me. He gets a little soft. He doesn’t really say much to me. Even if he has an opinion, he keeps it to himself. He feels that I’m easily breakable and whatever he says will affect me, so he really takes a step back and kind off cushions it through my mother.

Q How is the biopic on Sanjay Dutt shaping up? 

I have the responsibility of portraying him onscreen in the best way possible in an engaging way because his life is bloody interesting. It&’s not a propaganda film — it&’s not trying to paint him grey, white or black. It&’s a story that was waiting to be told.

I can’t wait. It&’s a tricky biopic because it&’s not somebody who was in the past or somebody who is dead or a political figure. He is a very famous Indian superstar who is still working in the movies. So how do you still make a biopic on him? You have a beginning and middle but where do you end? So as an actor, it&’s a challenge but I have director Raju Hirani, writer Abhijat Joshi and the character of Sanjay Dutt. They are all great crutches and I am sure they will help me sail through.